So I made a mistake

So on Friday I made a mistake that most people tell me wasnt such a big deal anyways. I had a birthday party for myself and got pretty drunk. After a while my girlfriends were trying to get my husband to show his nipple and since he wouldnt I volunteered. Then somehow there was a picture taken and while my husband was trying to erase the pictures I guess I decided to flash them again. Well he got really really upset with me and told me I was showing something private to us to everyone of his friends. I guess I was but jeez it was just a little boob, how horrible can it be. Well that led my drunken self to get really upset and start cutting myself...which little does he know I do quite often. Well he realizes what I am doing and he gets really pissed. Now he cant even look at me without being mad. So we finally go to bed and teh next morning he tells me how he will have a hard time trusting me again and that I betrayed him. So I get even more upset...ok I am really sorry for what I have done but I apologized refusely and I cant take it back. I still think he is over-reacting and so do all of my friends but he cant seem to understand. What I really dont get it that we were over at one of his friends house and they kept begging me and his friends girlfriend to go skinnydipping, can someone please tell me what the difference is????? I dont quite understand that! Anyways its been three days and he keeps calling me names like slut, whore, bitch, etc. He also keeps making comments about how i should just make sure and keep my shirt on, like I am going to do it again. He says he wants to get over the whole thing but how the hell is he going to when he keeps making comments about it. I know that its not making me feel any better about it. He also thinks that I now owe him because i made a mistake. I dont owe him shit, it was a mistake and the more i think about it, its not fair that he keeps holding it over my head.

I sure hope he gets over this quickly cause I am not sure how much longer I can take this bullshit. We have only been married for 5 months and I will not be able to live life like this forever. I dont want to lose him but it can only last so long if he treats me like crap.