Shoot me

I am so sick and tired of my job. Not that I hate my job but the people I work with are driving me cRaZY! One in particular tries to make me do everything for her, she is fucking anal and ridiculously annoying. Sometimes i just want to walk in there and tell her to fuck off. The other major pain in my ass is another lady who will leave and do anything she wants and leave me with everything to worry about. The other day she left for an appointment and was supposed to be back within an hour but she decided to stay and wait without even calling to tell me. She was gone 4 hours the office was crazy and she didnt even care. I suppose I just have to deal with it. Sucks though!

My In-Laws are driving my CRAZY

I think because I work with my in-laws which means I spend way too much time with them, makes me feel like they are absolutely annoying. When I dont see them everyday it doesnt bother me as much but I see them 5 times a week and this week 6 times. They are driving me crazy. Not to mention my husbands sister is a completely spoiled rotten little brat that gets everything she wants because she is the only girl and according to his mom...."Brian picked on her when she was little and that is why she has such low self esteem" No, I am pretty sure that its not Brians fault and that she needs to get over this whole woo is me. It is driving me crazy. I think they are spoiling her now to make up for this and its ridiculous. She is always gonna be like that if she knows she will get whatever she wants!!!!!! Plus she has never had a boyfriend or kiss cause she is a prude and very antisocial. She never wants to leave her little crowd and then complains when they all dont have time for her because they have boyfriends....hello!!!!! Anyways, to make a long story short I am about ready to go out of my mind with all of them please I need a little space and a break especially since the brat is back.

Why is Everyone So Damn Pissed Off

So why is it that everyone is in a bad mood on the same day. I feel like they all are out to get pissed off at everything and everyone. Or maybe it just runs in my husbands family. See I work for his parents and his dad was pissy this morning and then my husband seemed pissy this morning. It's like nothing you say is right and they will get pissed at anything, even when you are being nice or trying to help. Not only that my husband is one of those people that will yack and argue over nothing for hours. And he keeps repeating himself like I didnt hear him the first time. Well after I have heard the same thing 4 times I am pretty sure I get pissed off that I am wasting my time and talking about the same thing that was finished a long time ago. It drives me crazy and all I want to do is yell and scream and I cant because that would only drag the conversation on even further. What am I supposed to do....I can only be patient for so long....and not only that as the conversation goes on it always becomes my fault no matter where it began. I am so fucking tired of taking the blame for everything when I know and I am sure he knows that it wasnt me to begin with. AHHAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAA!!!!!!!!!!! Shoot me! Is it just me or is this a bit crazy!>??! I love him to death but geez stop already!

So I made a mistake

So on Friday I made a mistake that most people tell me wasnt such a big deal anyways. I had a birthday party for myself and got pretty drunk. After a while my girlfriends were trying to get my husband to show his nipple and since he wouldnt I volunteered. Then somehow there was a picture taken and while my husband was trying to erase the pictures I guess I decided to flash them again. Well he got really really upset with me and told me I was showing something private to us to everyone of his friends. I guess I was but jeez it was just a little boob, how horrible can it be. Well that led my drunken self to get really upset and start cutting myself...which little does he know I do quite often. Well he realizes what I am doing and he gets really pissed. Now he cant even look at me without being mad. So we finally go to bed and teh next morning he tells me how he will have a hard time trusting me again and that I betrayed him. So I get even more upset...ok I am really sorry for what I have done but I apologized refusely and I cant take it back. I still think he is over-reacting and so do all of my friends but he cant seem to understand. What I really dont get it that we were over at one of his friends house and they kept begging me and his friends girlfriend to go skinnydipping, can someone please tell me what the difference is????? I dont quite understand that! Anyways its been three days and he keeps calling me names like slut, whore, bitch, etc. He also keeps making comments about how i should just make sure and keep my shirt on, like I am going to do it again. He says he wants to get over the whole thing but how the hell is he going to when he keeps making comments about it. I know that its not making me feel any better about it. He also thinks that I now owe him because i made a mistake. I dont owe him shit, it was a mistake and the more i think about it, its not fair that he keeps holding it over my head.

I sure hope he gets over this quickly cause I am not sure how much longer I can take this bullshit. We have only been married for 5 months and I will not be able to live life like this forever. I dont want to lose him but it can only last so long if he treats me like crap.

About Me

Ok, so I am new here but I am just gonna jump right in and start blogging!!

Here goes nothing!

So today has been a very depressing day, unfortunately. I found out this morning that my grandma has lung cancer and it treatable but not curable. Work has been absolutely nonstop crazy and my husband whom I work with is driving me up the wall with his "I'm always right" attitude. You know sometimes it would be nice to know that he recognizes that he is wrong!!! What is it about guys that makes them think that they are all superior! It drives me crazy, when he is suposedly right you know I am going to hear about how stupid and ridiculous I am being even though deep down I know I am right not him, but it's easier to say that he is right than to argue with him. Plus his little comments, no matter how many times I tell him that he is hurting my feelings with some of his comments, yet he keeps saying them. Although I know he loves me very much sometimes I am not so sure about how much he cares about how i feel in situations.